I am just going to come right out with it. I failed! It wasn’t so much a case of me falling off the wagon (where does that saying even come from anyway?). It was more of a fully prepared, arms up, toes together, head firmly tucked between said arms kind of dive. Purposeful in its delivery! Yes, there were a few splashes, & certainly some ripples but at least I came up for air!!
I was doing so well. Not even the hashtag by @wonderluceblog #ashitfacedproject tempted me down off my booze free wagon even though it did sound like my kind of project.
So, what was the trigger of all triggers? Boredom!
I love my own company, I can always fill my time with things. Usually not the right things, hence why my house is always a tad on the untidy side. But, after a run of around 4 damn weekends when hubs & kids were all working late into the night every single weekend, I got bored.
And to be honest, I missed my little friend, booze. I missed how warm & relaxed it made me feel.
So, the decision was made, I opened up my recently purchased bottle of Rhubarb & Ginger Edinburgh Gin, added a long, long slug of Fever Tree Tonic, sat back & enjoyed. Then I enjoyed 2 more.
Benefits of Not Drinking
My friends kept asking me if I felt better for not drinking. More energy? Nope. Better skin? Yes, I will concede to that, my skin had definitely improved slightly. Weight loss? Hell no. Better sleep? I can sleep for Britain anyway so nope.
Negatives of Not Drinking
One of the hardest issues about not drinking is other people’s attitude. Especially if you are attending a social event. You become a social pariah. It’s almost as if by not drinking, you are highlighting their drinking habit & somehow shining a great big judgey spotlight on it.
But I think the worse thing about drinking, for me, is while I enjoy it at the time, the next morning reminds me that even 2 glasses of wine has a negative affect on my body physically.
It’s at that point I question why the hell I bother. Maybe the answer is to cut out drinking alcohol at home & only drink with a meal when out socially?
But then I’d never be able to join in with Lucy’s #ashitfacedproject on Twitter now would I?